Currently Playing Disney's Beauty And The Beast: The Broadway Musical - Original Broadway Cast Recording By Alan Menken, Howard Ashman, Tim Rice see related

God...I have nothing to write about.  My life has dimished to a mere nothing.  Well not nothing exactly.  Just nothing exciting.  Or maybe its just so exciting that I possibly still can't think of anything to say, because theres so much.  Hmm..food for though.."Food!!!  Where??" haha that was a little quote from my drama class' halloween program.  I'm so excited.  Yes sexually.  No just kidding.  I'm so excited because we are finally learning stage combat in my drama class.  And that is of course my favorite part of drama.  And to make matters twenty times better I am actually some what good at it.  I love Drama.  Yes for those of you who didn't know, I'm a hard core drama fag.  We learning a coreographed fight scene now.  I have to die, because my partner doesn't want to get his shirt dirty.  No just kidding.  I wanted to die, its fun.  Being killed with the sleeper hold.  Hmm...that would be so easy to get out of in real life.  But in our little skit I just die.  But the world would be so deeply depressed if I died!  RIGHT????  Anyway, wow I really seem to be just rambling on about nothing important. 

I came back from Hilo last week.  It was a wonderful band trip.  So much better than the california one.  Chaperones wise that is, and roomies wise.  I I love you Kim and Kellie!!!!  Haha so many new inside jokes!  Yet the old jokes are still wonderful.  Wednesday we had our last Marching band performace ever!!!!  I mean ever!  Never again will I wear my uniform, wear the helmet and perform the half time show.  I'm going to miss it so much!!!  I didn't want to give my helmet away.  It sounds stupid but I get really attached to possessions.  Anyway I had to turn my helmet in, but I put my last name on the top big and bold with hopes that they would give my same helmet to my younger brother.  Anyway not much else has happened so I shall leave you with this wonderful poem written by Thoreau.

I am a Parcel of Vain Strivings Tied

by Henry David Thoreau

I am a parcel of vain strivings tied By a chance bond together, Dangling this way and that, their links Were made so loose and wide, Methinks, For milder weather. A bunch of violets without their roots, And sorrel intermixed, Encircled by a wisp of straw Once coiled about their shoots, The law By which I'm fixed. A nosegay which Time clutched from out Those fair Elysian fields, With weeds and broken stems, in haste, Doth make the rabble rout That waste The day he yields. And here I bloom for a short hour unseen, Drinking my juices up, With no root in the land To keep my branches green, But stand In a bare cup. Some tender buds were left upon my stem In mimicry of life, But ah! the children will not know, Till time has withered them, The woe With which they're rife. But now I see I was not plucked for naught, And after in life's vase Of glass set while I might survive, But by a kind hand brought Alive To a strange place. That stock thus thinned will soon redeem its hours, And by another year, Such as God knows, with freer air, More fruits and fairer flowers Will bear, While I droop here.

Currently Playing The Cure - Greatest Hits By The Cure see related

Things the past week have been..how should I put it...ummm very interesting.  On Friday Kel, Kim, Vanessa and I went to Starbucks for a last minute cram oh i mean study session for the SAT which was on Saturday.  When I said last minute I meant it.  Well technically I wasn't supposed to go because I had talked back to my mother the night before and I hadn't cleaned up my room and blah blah blah.  Well anyway I ended up sneaking out of the house to go to a study session, something that I felt I had to do.  It was a perfect plan.  Kim picked me up after my mom left for work and we went to Starbucks.  At 3ish Kim took me home, because my mom gets off work at 4:30 ish.  Never in all her years of work has she come home early.  Well of all the days to do so it was the day that I snuck out of the house.  Well she found out and we had a talk about how I can't just do what I want to all the time.  "You don't live in a black hole.  The things you do affect others."  Of course this did not affect her one bit, but I kept my mouth shut on this one.  So now my mother says that I'm a FREE SPIRIT because I snuck out to go to a study session.  But I wasn't in too much trouble because she let me hang out with Kim and Vanessa after we took the horrible bitch of a test! 

On SAT day, I spent the entire three hours of test taking focused on everything else in that stupid class room.  And to make matters worse the clock hanging from the wall maybe the most irritating sound.  The Constant tick tick tick tick of the clock was enough to drive the most patient and calm individual up the freakin wall.  And as everyone knows I am far from patient and calm.  By the last section of the test, which of course in my case had to be a math section,  I just wanted to scream with every fiber of being that I cancel my scores and then lay my head on the desk and go to sleep.  The only thing keeping me from doing this was that god forsaken clock.  Which I suppose I should be thankful for.  I am pretty sure that I  got a terrible score.  Hey Kim, Vanessa and Kel we should start studying for the December SAT now!!!!!! 

After the SAT I had a great time.  But then again who wouldn't have a great time stuffing their face with pasta, which I had to give my self a hell of a lot of insulin for.  Kim, Vanessa and I went to Pearl Ridge and walked around and ate food and made fun of lots of stuff.  I had an awesome time in Spencers!  Whoo halloween stuff was everywhere!  I'm so happy halloween is coming soon!  Thats right bitch!  Halloween is here! haha...not quite.  Then we went to Circuit City for kim.  And had a wonderful time listening to Vanessa educate me and kim on an ethernet!  I kinda know what it is.  haha...Good times huh Kim?  Almost as good as talking about the Power Rangers!  Haha...Three Cheers for Billy the hot blue ranger!  I'm a sucker for geeks, and guys that wear glasses! 

After all of this Kim had to go home, but me and Vanessa didn't.  We went to Savers which has the most awesome stuff!  From the moment I walked into the store I was glowing with joy!  It was like Halloween threw up everywhere! haha...Well Me and Vanessa had a ton of fun trying on different weird things.. I put on a whole bunch of clothes, and this weird clown hat and vanessa took a picture of it. God I don't want to see how that one came out.  Well thats all for my adventure in SATing..It wasn't so bad now that I think of it.  But I hope my scores are good enough that I don't have to take it again in December.

Currently Reading The Glass Menagerie By Tennessee Williams see related

"we Still have Paris." (Casablanca)

Hmm..anything new?  No nothing is new since I got out of the hospital.  Oh yeah for those of you who didn't know..I got Diabetes..yes diabetes. So anyway I have this thing called a pancrease.  And the pancrease produces insulin.   And insulin is a natual substance in your body that allows cells to absorb the sugar that is taken from the carbs that you eat.  if your pancrease does not produce insulin the sugar from carbs just remains in the blood stream.  This is what happened in my case.  I have type one diabetes which is when your body produces no insulin at all.  Type two is when your body produces some but its not enough and its not being used in the right way.  Type two is caused by lack of exercise and excessive eating.  This is Diabetes.   It really sucks.  I now have to inject myself with insulin every single time I eat.  I have to count carbs and prick my finger to check my blood sugar every couple hours.  Can you say Pitty Party over here?  Just kidding.  I think that I am dealing with everything quite well.  I mean its hard and it sucks but whatever.  There are worse things in life than diabetes.  I'm just so happy that I have it and no one else in my immediate family has it.  I thank all of my friends especially kellie for helping me through this all.  Everytime I have to inject myself at a football game kellie is there to hold my arm or help push the insulin in!  Thanks...and she waited with me when my blood sugar was low at band!  You guys are the best!  And she even stuck up for me when people were getting grossed out by my needles.  She said will as much confidence and attitude as her body can hold, "If it freaks you out, then don't watch!"  that pisses me off!  Its like stop talking about how bad it looks because hello I'm sticking a fucking needle in my skin and I don't need this shit right now!  Its so irritating!  And then people thinking its funny to rush me, and make loud noises right when i'm about to give myself the shot!  Its fucking irritating...okay well anyone enough about that.  Not much has happened...Still wondering why the hell everything has happened the way it has.  Not even about the diabetes just about other stuff.  hmmm....I still don't even know what i'm going to major in.  I'm thinking secondary education maybe English and Drama. 

Currently Playing Room's Too Cold By Early November see related

New Update!  Whoo hoo!  Ian this is just for you!  Now don't you feel special!

Well the past few weeks have been shit!  Everyone should just make my new name "Doormat" because thats the way that certain people seem to be treating me.  You think you know someone and then turn around and treat you like shit!  After everything that has happened, I have turned into a bitter bitch.  Not that I wasn't that before or anything.  I'm just ten times as bitter as I was before.  Its not everyday that your told that your NOTHING!  yes thats what I said..I'm a nothing.  I'm nothing to everyone and everything!  Now I bet your thinking..wow that must really suck?  Well it does suck!  And worst part of it is that I don't freaking stick up for myself so then  I become once again the dreaded doormat.  Its not cool to treat people like shit!  I mean i'm told things everyday that make me feel less of a person.  But what the hell I deal with it.  The sad thing is that what people or person more like it is telling me could really do damage to someone.   I mean say a group of people laugh as you walk by....You shouldn't tell someone "those people laughed at you as you walked by."  I mean I have low self esteem as it is.  I don't need that shit!   Just a random question..How do you dump someone?  I really need to know that!  It would such a great use.  Guess I'm not that much a bitch if I can't even get rid of someone. Grrrr..and I'm not just complaining about one person here.  When people treat me like shit I should stick up for myself.  But I don't, so then they think that its okay to keep doing it.  And what irritates me is when people don't apologize for when they are being assholes?  I mean why the hell should I apologize for being "mad" when I had a perfectly good fucking reason to be mad!  Of course I apologize for everything!  Why the hell do I do that!  I wish I didn't  because I don't even get an apology from the person pissing me off...No..Never have I heard the words "I'm sorry".  Its just an "oh..thats why you were mad?"  And thats the end of it!  I don't care about it anymore.  Oh who the fuck am I trying to trick..I do care!  Or else I wouldn't be sitting at my computer typing out this stupid entry.  Yes this entry is stupid!  Soooo Stupid...

On another thought, back to the ugly bitterness...I am never going to get married!  Why you ask?  Because I'm just not!  Its sad too!  But I already know how i'm going to end up.  I am going to be the mean old cat lady on the block.  All the little children will dare each other to come to my house and ring my doorbell.  Then none of them will come to my house on halloween to get candy.   And I'll yell at them when they try to take short cuts through my yard!  Ahhh what a bad life I have ahead of me!  Oh well...I guess I have to start liking cats, since as of now I am alergic to them!  Fuck...I don't want to be the bitter old cat lady!    Ah whatever.  Yo Ho Yo Ho its a pirates life for me...(I think i'm the only person on the planet that hasn't seen that movie)

Currently Reading The Bell Jar : A Novel (Perennial Classics) By Sylvia Plath see related

My last Wells Week is over...over over over forever and ever!!!   So many memories and so many laughs.

Wells Week Laugh number one

Kim and I walk into mr. Sato's offiice..

Kim: "hey mr. Sato do you watch I love the...Oh wait you don't have cable"

Me: "So you probably only have channels: 2, 3, 4, 5"

Mr. Sato:  "I don't even have channel 5"

Me: That sucks because if you did you could watch King of The Hill.....*silence*....Oh yeah!"

*kim and I laugh for several minutes*

Wells Week Laugh number 2

Kim, Kellie and I are sitting in the sacred place of PCHS which is really C-D courtyard....

Kim and I start talking about I love the 90s which gets us into talking about the Power Rangers

Me:  "Hey did you ever find it ironic that the black ranger was a Black man?"

Kim:  "And the yellow ranger is the asian girl"

We laugh for several minutes once again...Kellie continues to stare at us not knowing what we are talking about...

In recent news.....I have become one of the "hated"  section leaders.  I just don't understand why the section hates me because I tell them to be quiet.  If they were doing their shit like they are supposed to then I wouldn't have to yell.  God and as it seems I am PMSing 24/7!  Whatevah I don't care what little bitchy freshmen girls think of me.  Xanga bashing is so stupid!  Its Pointless and if you have to bash people on a xanga then that shows that you have no balls!  Xanga bashers can suck my non-existing balls.